Mind > Matter

16th May 2013

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Yearning

I spent time reflecting on my life. My coming up & getting to the point I’m at.

I never realized how much of a broken family I really do come from. I also never realized how much it really has effected me. It’s pretty much the norm in the world we live in & I guess that’s why I never paid it much mind. I also never realized how many “friends” I had that just came & went like me being in their lives was immediately required to be temporary. 

All I yearned for while growing up was for real friends. People to do cool shit with & make memories for more than just a few months. It hit me not too long ago that all the people I complained about holding me back really are the most real friends I’ve ever had & they’ve really never left me hanging. I just spent so much time selfishly focusing on myself rather than everyone as individuals that I completely missed the beauty of the individual friendships I share with each of my homies. As of recently I’ve been spending a lot of time with everyone & actually enjoying life because I am on the same page as every one who is around me for a change.

Maybe this is what it’s like to live a “normal” life. Honestly I don’t care because it’s MY life & I finally have a grasp on what that means. No matter the ups or the downs I face I know that I do have people I can depend on & that feels really good to say. I may not be at the point I want to be at in life but I am happy with where I’m at because I know I’m steadily moving forward these days.

My conclusion? Don’t stress so hard on the things that you think you want. Take a minute to step back, take a deep breath, & really take in what is in front of you already. It may not be everything you want but with a little change of the way you perceive things you might realize that things you want aren’t always the things you need.

P.S. The concept of making friends else where is still fun to do though. 

P.P.S. Don’t be afraid to spark up a conversation http://withinrevelations.tumblr.com/ask

16th May 2013

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Hi

Its raining & I have nothing to do at work. 

Let’s be friends.